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A Different Kind of Christmas: Guest Post from Soul Gardeners 

By Mindy Caliguire - Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Guest blogger from Soul Gardeners.com is Tom, who loves life and enjoys exploring as much of it as he can. He is sharing life with Lollie, Tayla and Liam as well as friends and family. He is passionate about the kingdom and how it takes expression in South Africa. For original posting, click here.

This Sunday is the beginning of the new year.  That is if you follow the church calendar.  The lectionary readings for the gospels next year will be from the book of Matthew. This past year was from Luke.  This is now the eighth year I will be following the rhythms of the church year. It is a wonderful anti-rhythm to the consumer calendar and as we all know the Christmas season is the ultimate crazy consumer season.

So Sunday marks the start of Advent; the four Sundays before Christmas where we prepare our hearts for the “comings” of Jesus (that is what advent means). A few years ago I stumbled across the Advent Conspiracy site and though it was a great idea to establish a different rhythm.

A Holy Longing 

By Mindy Caliguire - Saturday, January 24, 2009

"I have come to bring fire on the earth,
and how I wish it were already kindled!
But I have a baptism to undergo,
and what constraint I am under
until it is completed!"

(two exclamation points!)

In reading Luke 12:49-50 this morning, I am struck by something I've never noticed: Jesus felt the constraint of the not-yet reality of being human. The "baptism" he needed to undergo was his own death and resurrection. "How I wish [the fire he would one day bring] were already kindled! But I have a baptism to undergo..."  Divine patience! A Holy Longing!

Imagining Jesus feeling constraint as he waited for God's timing and plan to unfold stops me in my tracks this morning. Each of us feel that... and I find his example to me, today, is mixed. We, Jesus and I, are not alike.

Un-similarly (yes, I know it's not a word), he knew the exact reason for the delay, and his knowledge of the bigger picture in this case clearly bolstered and under-girded his willingness to wait on God's timing despite Holy Discontent. He is content to wait, because he knows full well what must happen first. We don't always know the reasons why perfectly good desires--even "ministry" desires--are delayed. Hardly ever, in my experience.

But similarly, I am able to wait on God's timing--even when I don't know the "why". Jesus could see, and I cannot. But though I cannot see, I can still trust the unseen One who surely governs my world.

This story affirms for me both the emotional tension of living in the "now" and the "not yet"--and also the certain promise of God's  purposes unfolding.

It does really feel like constraint--aligned with, in our case, blind but firm hope.

How about you... have you experienced a Holy longing?
What did you do with that tension between the "now" and the "not yet"?